Yes well that was a couple of weeks I could have done without. Parnate now joins the Tryptophan family of drugs as those Mel will never be using again.
It started with an unexpectedly massive bout of PMS. Unexpected as thanks to an Implanon implant, I haven’t menstruated or had PMS for 18 months. Only realised what the rollercoaster of emotions was when the bleeding started and realised “Oh yes I remember this hormonal ride now” followed by a massive bout of the period blues. As both were entirely unexpected I was completely unprepared and had none of my usual coping methods in place. In fact with not dealing with either issue in so long I’ve actually forgotten what my coping methods were.
Once that lovely half week was over everything seemed to settle down, but I kept having communication issues. Everything I said came out wrong. Worse it seemed in every conversation that the other person was willfully misunderstanding me. It was frustrating and demoralising and after a few days I just gave up and stopped trying to talk to anybody. I stopped reading my email lists, twitter, leaving the house. Even mum and I had a day or two or polite frozen conversation as we just couldn’t talk to each other.
I, a foodie, completely lost interest in food. Couldn’t care less what I ate or if I ate. Most meals I managed to choke down two or three bites of food so I take my pills without an upset stomach. If I didn’t have to do that, I wouldn’t eat at all. Ever. I was never hungry. I couldn’t care if I bathed or not. I didn’t notice if the house was a mess. All I could see was how frustrated and angry and alone I was.
So I reduced and then removed the pills.
Its been 48 hours now since I took the last pill and apart from some digestive issues (which may be coincidental) I’m feeling (and told I’m sounding) more like me.
I’m starting to reconnect with the world again, but I have a bit of backlog of reading to do, so if you’re waiting on an email or a phone call from me – today’s a good day to ring or email me to remind me 🙂
Oh and for the record – Parnate did nothing for the migraines. In fact it actually made some of the symptoms worse.